My-dreams-My-reality

October sucked. Worst month of my life. I can't even begin to...explain? describe? I don't even know. I thought it was bad in April when I got dumped...but October topped it all. Living hell. Literally. Worst torment I could ever have imagined. I take that back. I could never have imagined something so heart wrenching as what happened in October. Yeah. Been learning a lot about God this year, through many trials. I thought 2008 was the tough year, but 2009 has been the year from hell. Been learning a lot though... I think the theme for this year has been forgiveness. I dunno, maybe December will be different. But yeah, forgiveness pretty mu

i had no idea my heart could break this much.. 4 weeks today.

I'm pretty much freaking out. Everything is culminating all at once, and I don't know how to handle it. I think my mind is going to explode. I'm freaking out about school. I transferred this summer from the public Eastern Washington University to the private (and much more expensive) Whitworth University. Basically, I was closing in on my sophomore year at Eastern, and I didn't have a major and I had to declare one. Over the summer, things fell into place for Whitworth, where I am currently majoring in graphic design and minoring in dance (dance was the main reason for the switch, however). I'm a junior now, and my parents are dolling out t